Saturday, November 8, 2008

"Tales from the Trenches of the Comedian Medium"

As I sit here eating my cardboard like Special K, decompressing after a show, I decided to start a blog. Just about every day someone asks me, "How do you do it?" They don't mean talking to the dead--they mean keeping up with my schedule. Let me give you a glimpse inside my day. Typically, I'm up early with the kids getting them fed, backpack packed, and out the door for school. I have two boys, 7 and 9. On most days after dropping them off, I head to my office to read a family or parents who lost a child. If you read of a tragedy in the paper, chances are they find their way to me. I drop everything and do what I can to help a family in the throws of immediate grief. My waiting list for parents is about 2 years, with a special shorter waiting list for the above-mentioned recent tragedies. It gives me great joy to offer these readings at no charge. Some do donate to my cancer foundation, "Seeds of Hope."

After one of these readings, I usually have a client waiting for a hands-on-healing session for cancer. I work with individuals dealing with stage 4 or end-stage cancer. I also see children/babies struggling with severe catastrophic illness. One day I might be in Children's Hospital in Boston, and the next day, a private home. There are days I want to just pull the covers over my head and stay in bed all day, overwhelmed with the amount of people reaching out for help. It weighs heavy on my heart that I can't help them all. Don't get me wrong, I am humbled and honored that word has spread and people have somewhere to turn when their world is coming down around them. I guess I am admitting that I am just human and my cape is tattered and worn.

After a day of grieving or ill clients, I head to school to pick up the kids. The current sport of the week is kickball. We grab a snack and head outside for a rockin' game of street kickball. I cherish every moment with my children. When I am with them, I am just "Mom." They only expect that I make them laugh, patch their wounds and tell them a story before bedtime (in between breaking up a brawl between brothers). Three nights a week I head out to do a "Postcards from Heaven" show. The venues vary....a haunted historic Inn, a bookstore, hotel, restaurant, my office, The World Trade Center, Knights of Columbus, and even a haunted town hall.

I truly enjoy my work but at the end of the day, I'm burnt to a crisp. The shows allow me to do my volunteer work during the day, and still support my family. I do my best to support some local needy families each week with donations, paying their bills, filling their oil tanks and keeping food on the table. It breaks my heart to see hard working people all around me in jeopardy of losing their homes and not being able to buy the basics. Look around you and see if there is someone you might be able to help by cooking a meal, dropping off groceries, or just buying a card to make them smile. Try not to get so busy that you forget to PAY IT FORWARD.

For the last few years, I have fought my calling to assist with missing and murdered children. A few times I've sent an e-mail to the FBI on some high profile cases. If I saw the picture of a missing child, I could tell by looking in their eyes whether or not they have passed. Some would not leave me alone until I contacted their family or authorities. It is so hard for me to write, "I am a psychic medium." I imagined a bunch of guys standing around the computer laughing. I was so very wrong. Because I took a leap of faith (I jumped off a very large cliff and God caught me), I now wear another cape. It is the cape of justice for the children and hope for families suffering unimaginable pain and not knowing. I am working with a group of dedicated, compassionate people (The LPDAM, Licensed Private Detective Association of Massachusetts). They donate their time, effort, heart and soul to finding the children or clues for closure. I am honored they have opened their minds to the possibility of what I can offer. So now, on my days off (ha ha), I am assisting with searches and the plannning process. Soon, I hope to partner with the LPDAM to start a foundation for missing & murdered children. (more on the next blog).

Additionally, as many of you know, I am in the process of writing a book. Finding the time to do so is very challenging but it is my passion and a way for me to unwind. After a show, I am usually up until the early morning hours trying to decompress and ground myself after raising my vibration for 3-4 hours. Soon, I must slow down. My body and soul demand it. My heart fights against it. They say God only gives you what you can I will keep giving and try my best to balance my busy life.

My wish for you is to slow down, take a look around, notice something today that you've been missing in the rush of life. Maybe it's a song on the radio, the brilliant colors of the leaves falling, taking a breath of fresh air, your child's deep belly laugh. I also ask that you forgive someone today. They don't even have to know! Maybe it's the person who is riding your tail or cut you off (you never know what someone else's challenges are or why they are in such a hurry). Maybe you need to forgive yourself or let go of unwanted guilt. Do something for you and I will try to follow my own advice.